Album Review: Cage Fight - "Exuvia"

Occasionally in this line of work, it’s difficult to explain why an album grabs attention.  Such is the case with Cage Fight’s new album Exuvia.  It’s an explosive record with a comfortable balance of hooks and brutality, and while that seems like an overly simple explanation for why the record is worthy of discussion…that’s more or less the crux of it.

Chris and I talk a great deal here about how one of the ways to stand out in a choked and overcrowded musical sphere is to do something familiar really well, and that’s the camp Cage Fight calls into.  Is there anything on Exuvia that makes the listener say ‘holy crap, I’ve never heard that before’?  No, not really.  Instead, the album offers a clever collection of established pieces - thrashy riffs, the relentless cadence of death metal bordering on grindcore, and big, thumping breakdowns like we’re used to hearing from Knocked Loose or Alien Weaponry.

Skip on down to the anthemic “Pick Your Fighter,” and you’ll hear what we’re talking about.  Sure, there’s a metal-on-metal crunch to the drawn-out second half of the song, but the big chorus that lends itself to crowds cheering along ties the piece back together.  It’s a similar phenomenon to Arch Enemy or the best works of Destrage, that no matter how far the band may go down the rabbit hole, there’s always a comeback hook to put it all back in sync.

Now, the differences between those two bands and Cage Fight are myriad, but the principal one is that while those bands strayed into other, sometimes abstract musical concepts, Cage Fight, when they venture into the unknown, defaults to being heavier than they were a minute ago.  ‘Heavier’ is the only word in metal that gets used more than ‘darker,’ to the point where both words have been rendered meaningless, but it applies here.  “Un Bon Souvenir,” is the perfect example.  There’s a melodic chorus (a rarity on the album, with clean vocals and everything,) but just when it seems like the track might get mired in melodrama, here comes the big 2/4-time breakdown to drag the track into the mud.  Which in this case is a compliment.

As the title track rolls around, it would be easy to think Cage Fight has shown all their cards, but this song brings another to the fore - suddenly, Exuvia becomes a melodic death metal record.  Where did this come from?  Who knows, and who cares, the song works, and provides an important and attention-grabbing change of pace just as the album was otherwise starting to lose its head of steam.

For all that, there is a ceiling to Exuvia. As stated earlier, what Cage Fight is trading on is the ability to be really good at the familiar; as with everything, there are levels to it.  To make a poor comparison - Cage Fight is really good at this music, but they are not, for example, as good at what they’re doing as Graveyard is at making blues rock.

In the end, what Exuvia really represents is a summer fling.  It’s a great, listenable record with many high moments and some unique puzzle pieces that fit together in interesting ways.  It’s an album that the listener will have fun with over the next few months, but by the time the leaves start to turn, attention may divert elsewhere.

Am I Really Writing About 'Cherry Poppin' Daddies'?

Often, we find ourselves cursing the torrent of new music being released, and the overwhelming amount of information we need to take in if we want to feel as if we are keeping up with the events of the world. That is exhausting, and frustrating, but there are some benefits to the sheer amount of noise we are subject to. The main one is that details get lost in that haze, and we never hear about many things we would rather not ever be aware of. That's where we start today's discussion.

While nostalgia for the past continues at an nearly unabated pace, one small fragment of my youth that has not seen a revival was the short-lived swing craze of the late 90s. We seem to have collectively pushed out of our minds that we had a brief fling with horns and fedoras, which is really for the best. While we can look back and cringe at a lot of the pop music of the time, the childishness of pop/punk, and the ridiculous eyeliner of the emo and nu-metal beginnings, those were at least moments of time that were of the time. The swing revival was silly, but it was also an anachronism that makes it stand out as being worse than everything else that was terrible.

The most notable offender, and I use that word deliberately, were Cherry Poppin' Daddies. With a name that could be read as an allusion to lusting for the underage, they put out a collection of their swinging songs that concentrated on drinking, drugs, and violence. While other groups were using the old-time sound as a means of having some nostalgic fun, Cherry Poppin' Daddies were doing a gritty reboot that no one wanted. We didn't want to think about zoot suits covering up the frail figures of heroin addicts, nor the days when men could smack flappers around for daring to be independent people. That was all part of the past, but Cheery Poppin' Daddies did it without any of the wink-and-nod that told us they were in on the joke.

No, they sounded as sleazy as the characters in their songs. The creeps crept into our consciousness, but not far enough to get pushed back out when the fad died out.

Recently, I was reminded that not only are Cherry Poppin' Daddies still around, they're still putting out new music with regularity. In fact, they released an album earlier this year that features a song I feel needs to be talked about. In it, they include one of those lyrics that takes your breath away, because you cannot fathom how anyone can think it was a good idea to release when you are not known for being a comedian.

"I get boners in the street."

Yes, the band wrote a song about staring at beautiful women and getting aroused in public. Why? We could say it's an attempt to be funny, but is there any comedy in telling random women that you've gotten off to them? If you even have to think for a second about that, you might want to do some serious re-evaluating of yourself.

The song tries to frame all of this as the story of an innocent boy taking in the beauty inherent in the women of the world, but this is the story of a person trying to drink when there is no thirst trap. This is the mindset of someone who isn't saying it, but would absolutely be wearing gray sweatpants while leering so the women would be forced to see what is happening. They wouldn't be impressed, obviously, but that's beside the point to someone like that.

So we revert to the question of why someone would write this song. For me, it falls into the same category as when Meat Loaf sang, "I can barely fit my dick in my pants".

There was a genre derisively called 'cock rock' because it seemed none of the purveyors were able to think with anything else. That can also describe a pantheon of songs written by men about their manhood, all of which beg the question of who they are trying to convince. Much like how someone who is truly cool or confident doesn't need to tell you all about it, the people who are constantly talking about their junk give the impression of knowing it needs to be hyped up to make any sort of impression.

Sometimes, we can write these things off as being the follies of youth, and that we simply hadn't learned yet how to be better people. Cherry Poppin' Daddies have been around for thirty years, so that excuse is out the window. Meat Loaf was old enough to collect Social Security when he sang his lyric. And yet, we are still confronted with old men acting as if they have magic wands in their pants, apparently believing that rock and roll means you can be a lecherous creep. Given rock's history, maybe it does, but that's the problem.

I would sum it up with this quasi-joke: If the sexiest thing about a man lies in the four inches between his ears, perhaps singing about the other thing that's four inches isn't a good use of that limited brain power.

Album Review: Foo Fighters - Your Favorite Toy

Is rock dead? Of course the answer is no, but there is a similar question we should be asking that isn't quite so easy to answer. Is rock cool? That's the one we really need to think about. Ever since rock and roll became a thing, it has been a source of cool, but it's easy now to look back and see how each generation of cool became lame as time wore on. That leaves us with a situation today where there is no new generation of rock in the mainstream, so the bands currently undergoing the lame-ing process are still the faces of rock.

No one fits that bill more than Dave Grohl, who has been spending the last decade destroying all the credibility he acquired from being in Nirvana. Foo Fighters have been growing stale, boring, and reliant on the kinds of gimmicks that make it feel as if they don't want to even be a band anymore. Maybe the passing of Taylor Hawkins was the right moment to put the band to rest, but instead they carry on making us question when the long fall finally hits the ground.

This album is centered around the concept of noise, and some harsh instrumental pieces Dave had been writing. They had 'energy' he felt the band needed, and became the basis for this record. That's at least an artistic choice, rather than the way they tried to usurp the vibe of different cities, or recording in different studios just for the sake of crossing them off their bucket list. It's been hard to defend the band's artistic process, and this record again shows Dave often forgets what made Foo Fighters (and Nirvana, for that matter) beloved in the first place.

This record shares the most DNA with "One By One", but the difference is stark; "One By One" was a record of tight songs that were played with raw intensity, while this record is a set of raw ideas that lack the songwriting polish to make them memorable. It's very much an illustration of the difference between music and sound. Plenty of people will enjoy this because it's loud and raucous, while those of us who appreciate the craft of songwriting more than the sound of a particular amp will come away disappointed.

The title track is where things hit rock bottom, as Dave buries his voice under a wash of distortion that is truly painful to listen to, which is baffling, because he can still scream well enough to get the distortion the natural way. Choices like that would engender long discussions if this was an album that was worth such investment, but these songs offer little for us to grasp and enjoy. It's a record that looks back at "Wasted Light" (their last good album) and thinks "White Limo" needed to be remade three or four times on a single record, when that was the worst song they had ever recorded up to that point.

Maybe Dave shouldn't be writing a song called "Child Actor" when his daughter is currently trying to get a music career off the ground. It plays too much into the narrative of nepotism and industry plants to feel obtuse, and Dave's continued shout of "turn the cameras off" sounds more like a man screaming his frustration about his personal life imploding in public than it does anything centered on the song's narrative.

I know I've been harsh on Foo Fighters over the years, and that's because I know they know better. "There Is Nothing Left To Lose", "One By One", and "Wasting Light" are great albums that kept rock going in the mainstream maybe longer than it would have otherwise. It's because they're reached those heights that the depths look as dark and depressing as they are. Dave hasn't completely forgotten how to write a decent song, but he doesn't pull them out very often anymore. This is one of those albums that will be successful on a name-brand basis only, and unfortunately that will be enough to keep Dave thinking he's on the right path.

'Past Perfect' Is Grammar, Not Judgment

"How about some new oldies?"

Those words were spoken as a joke by Carl in an episode of "The Simpsons", but like a lot of comedy, there is some truth to be uncovered if we dig a little bit deeper. We have talked many times over the years here about cultural stagnation, and how the last twenty-five years have basically been one long decade when it comes to music, movies, and television. That has not only left us feeling bored with everything that is offered to us, but it paints the varied decades of the last century in more vivid colors than can ever fade in our memories.

At the turn of the millennium, I noted the local radio station changing their slogan from "the 70s, 80s, and today" to "the 80s, 90s, and today". Twenty-six years later, they are using the same slogan, and playing all of the same songs from the 80s as they did back then. Rather than keep up with the times the way they were happy to do when it meant ditching the 70s, they instead have lumped everything that has come after Y2K into one bucket, which they just so happen to spend less time with than the older models.

Why does this happen? That's an interesting question, and I'm not sure if the answer is the same one, but we have seen the same thing happen in politics. There was a generation who refused to pass the torch and let the next generation lead, even as the world has moved so far beyond them they haven't the foggiest clue what life is like for people these days. It should have become evident twenty years ago when a Senator called the internet "a series of tubes", but we have seen the people in charge grow more and more out of touch with each passing year, to he point where now we have literal dementia patients telling us what the rules are supposed to be.

Music sometimes feels the same way.

I'm old enough now that I understand how hard it can be to let go of what was, and instead try to get on board with what could be. Leaving behind the forces that made you the person you are is terrifying, but it's an inevitable part of life. Those people who refuse to let any new pop star get played more often than Madonna miss the fact that she never would have been who she was if the disco queens of the 70s hadn't been tossed aside like three-day old roadkill. The people who insist on putting as much Led Zeppelin on playlists as the entirety of rock in this century are the same people who aren't self-aware enough to realize that 'rock and roll' was originally Jerry Lee Lewis and Little Richard, and that entire genre had to die for classic rock to rise up.

When I have occasion to hear the local 'modern rock' station, I'm struck by the fact that at least half of the music they play comes from the 90s. I love much of that music too, but there is nothing modern about that music, and refusing to move on from it tells all the new artists they have to fit that mold if they want to get any airplay at all. The previous century's shifts from decade to decade enabled, if not encouraged, artists to try new things and find new sounds, while our adherence to the past today encourages everyone to play it safe. When nothing has changed, it makes it harder for anything to change. Inertia, eh?

But here's the depressing part of all of this; the music I grew up listening to is now as old as what the 'oldies' stations were playing back then. It doesn't feel like I'm old enough for that to be true, but it is. When I write essays about how all the albums that were formative to me are turning twenty-five or thirty years old, what I'm not saying is that an entire generation has now passed since they were released. It isn't normal or natural for those records to still get more airplay than anything being released today. They weren't written for the people and mood of this current climate, and they don't fit the zeitgeist properly. They were records for my day and time, and I want to think I'm cognizant enough to realize this, and not demand a reversion to the historical record.

Psychology tells us most people lose their interest in new music at or in their thirties. I have made it past that point, but the effect is very much felt these days. The ways music has evolved are not largely compatible with what I want from music, which leaves the easiest option as living in the past. I have embraced all my old favorite albums as much as anyone, but I do still keep my ear to the ground for what it out there now, because I don't want to become fossilized. While I might spend the rest of my life primarily listening to the music I already know and love, I can't become one of those people telling the world to stop spinning just because I feel sick.

Do I wish there were more new songs and albums that sound like the new 'oldies' I built my life upon? Of course I do, but I also think to myself how disingenuous it would be if that was the case. When I hear the new bands coming up that sound like they're ripped out of the 80s, it makes me sad, both because I know they weren't even alive when that was the inspirational sound, but also because I know much of that is a direct result of people older than me drilling it into the heads of the younger generations that the future will never be as good as the past.

I once wrote a satirical bit saying that if we truly believed high school was 'the best days of our lives', caps and gowns would also come with a self-harm kit. What we're doing culturally isn't that much different, but we refuse to take the advice. If we don't hold out hope that the future can deliver us something great, why are we bothering to live into that future?

That's too deep for a conclusion drawn from a shallow groove in a slab of vinyl, huh?

Album Review: Admiral Sir Cloudesley Shovell - "The Trouble With The Shovell"

Lingering guilt. That’s what this review is about.

Way back in 2012, an editorial was written on the forerunner of this website, detailing the ten best albums of that year.  That editorial listed Admiral Sir Cloudesley Shovell’s album Don’t Hear it…Fear It! as the best album of the year.  On a list that included some all-time luminary albums such as The Sword’s Apocryphon, Cancer Bats’ Dead Set on Living and Graveyard’s Lights Out.

And there was nothing wrong with Don’t Hear It…Fear it!...but there is no way on this blue earth that it was the album of the year over some of the heavyweights listed above.  The mistake was immediate and irreparable.

So, each time The Shovell decides to release new music, the same guilty party that made that mistake devotes time and energy to the new record, to see if something can be gleaned from The Shovell’s progression that makes the guilt sting just a little less.

And so the exercise repeats, as the band stands to release their fifth full length album, “The Trouble with the Shovell.”

It’s…fine.  It’s an enjoyable record.  There are some great moments at the end, like “Blue Mountain Dust,” which evokes memories of the band’s best song, “Don’t Hear it…Fear It!” (not to be confused with the album of the same name,) and “Another Greasy Spoon,” which as the title suggests, is classic blues sleaze rock in its best and final form.  

Really, the whole record is a dirty, grimy rock experience, which fits well into what the idiom of The Shovell has always been, lo, these eighteen years.  Just pop on album opener “Laughing Gravy,” and be reminded of the same kind of mood that allowed Black Sabbath to open Master of Reality with “Sweet Leaf.”

The difference is, Master of Reality is so much more than that opening track, evolving into “Children of the Grave” and ultimately into the enduring classic “Into the Void.”  By contrast The Trouble With the Shovell never really moves past “Laughing Gravy” to become something more.  So, if you like the first track, you’ll like most of what follows.  And if you don’t, well…

There is the brief moment of “Kind Boy” which bops along with something almost akin to the upbeat tempos of classic southern rock, and that’s a fun interlude as The Shovell channels their inner Golden Earring.  As far as versatility goes, that’s about all that’s on offer, though.

The guilt remains.

Album Review: Hokka - Via Miseria

There are two strains of goth-related rock/metal; the kind that was embodied by H.I.M., and the kind that comes with the cliche baritone delivery. Personally, I have never been able to get much into that more traditional style of goth, because too often it sounds like an affect being put on because it is expected. Those baritone deliveries come across like a costume, and being able to see the edges of the prosthetic make it difficult for the emotion to come through. Goth is about darkness and pain, and yet the way it is often delivered is more like wearing day-glow paint under a black light and wondering why no one thinks you're scary.

Hokka is taking the other path, with a sound that is no less centered on anguish, but doesn't bother trying to equate lower frequencies with lower moods. This also isn't H.I.M, per se, as that velvety haze is not present here either. Hokka is doing something different, wherein they are bringing goth together with emo and melodic rock, giving us a record that would not have been out of place as the soundtrack to the viral dance scene from "Wednesday". This is Addams Family dark, not razorblades on skin dark. That difference is important.

With songs called "In The Darkness", "Death By Cupid's Arrow", and "Murder Ballad", it's obvious we are not dealing with music that is going to make us feel good. That's true, but by embracing a sound that has a bit more energy and sizzle to it, Hokka is reaching out from those shadows to ask us the question from the best version of Batman: "Have you ever danced with the devil by the pale moonlight?"

In a way, this record reminds me of "The Black Parade", if that one was filtered through a sieve that took the sharper edges off of it. MCR went on tangents, threw in more anger and theatricality, but the core sound underneath that is similar to what Hokka is offering us here. Hokka is more singularly focused, and their stories of hurt are more internal, but the expression stems from the same place.

I would also compare this to the record Cemetery Skyline put out, which also blended goth and melody to great effect. That album had a bit more of the traditional goth baritone, which might have made it more acceptable to the old-guard than this record will be, but it also means Hokka is able to feel less like an intentional piece of nostalgia. Hokka's music sounds fresher, which might give us the impression it's more honest, because it's hard to talk purely in the past and have it make the same impact as something new.

Across these songs, Hokka shows a knack for delivering soaring melodies that are more memorable and engaging than a lot of goth croaking tends to be. They aren't content to set an atmosphere and cloak themselves in it, they want to give us the anthems for our pity parties, which they do.

I don't know if the goth and emo renaissance has passed us by, but whether the numbers are declining or not, Hokka has given us a record that would be a highlight regardless.

Music, A Movie, & Rewriting My Life

Editor's Note: Today's essay is only tangentially about music, and is entirely self-indulgent. My apologies for both, but writing this is far more interesting to me than finding a thousand words this week to describe an album I wasn't actually interested in listening to.

And thus:

Our relationship with music can become complicated to the point of knotting, the threads of thought winding around themselves so often finding the way back to the origin can be impossible. Of course, there is music that exists as nothing more than a good time we bop our head along to while never pondering if it has any meaning to life beyond reminding us how ridiculous we look when trying to dance. That might explain a lot of people, but it doesn't explain me. When music gets under my skin, I start trying to unravel the how and why, and in the best of circumstances I discover something I had not yet figured out how to put into words.

That is true of the music I listen to, but it was also true of the music I made. Or attempted to make, if we want to be more realistic than generous. Music was not just a hobby, it was a form of therapy that allowed me to speak the truth without worrying about anyone hearing it. The metaphors and melodies obscured the message enough that I was free to be honest without incurring any of the judgment that comes along with saying things I would otherwise find too uncomfortable to mention. It worked well, until it didn't. Eventually, I learned that my assessment of my own talent was grossly exaggerated, and the very act of trying to pry music from myself became self-inflicted depression I could set my watch to.

Even after setting down my pen as a musician, and as a writer of prose and stories, I could not shake the nagging voice in my head that tells me I need to be creating something. I tried my best to ignore it, and to find what my next chapter would be, but that was wishful thinking. Eventually, when a certain scene kept playing out in my head as I was trying to sleep, it became clear the only way to excise that demon was to write it down. As fate would have it, when I sat down to do just that, I realized it was the key to unlocking the ultimate cliche of the wannabe writer; the screenplay.

Film is not my preferred medium, but there has always been something about the movie "High Fidelity" that has stuck with me. I didn't understand it when I first saw the movie, but the years have shown me that despite the character Rob Gordon and I being entirely different, we also share pieces of our psychology. As such, the idea had occurred to me at one point to write my own version of that movie, if for nothing else than to go on my own journey similar to Rob's.

I never did that, but I did write script pages that were intended to be a sitcom set in a record store. It amused me, but it felt self-contained, and I had no idea where to take the story if I wanted to write more. That was true... until that recent episode.

With a plot point in hand, I was able to quickly sketch out the remainder of where the story should go. What started as the thought of writing my own version of the movie became something different, but in actuality exactly what I intended all along. I was not writing pages to catalog my own history of failure in a ranked form, but the writing did become about working through aspects of my story.

The writing went quickly, and within a week I had completed a screenplay that feels perhaps more satisfying than anything else I have written over the years. Writing a novel is a massive undertaking, but a purely fictional story has a level of detachment that lets me forget about the very act of writing it. The songs I've written were more honest, but since I cannot voice them in any way I want to ever hear again, they too exist in a recess of reality I often overlook. This script, though, is something I was able to pour my psyche into that I enjoy playing through in my mind.

We write fiction for many reasons, some of which are only apparent to our subconscious. Only after I was finished did I realize what I was doing the whole time was using the format to write an ending to a chapter of my life. When I stopped writing music, it was anticlimactic. Something that was so important to me ended with a whimper, and left me with an empty feeling. I was done writing music, but I didn't feel like I was done with music.

My script is a fictionalized version of myself, where giving up was not the end of the story. In the pages, I work through the fact that sometimes quitting is more an act of trying to convince ourselves than anything. Despite the pain it causes, there is still hope that it might work out in the end. More than that, I wrote a line that was far more honest than I intended it to be. Upon hearing his artistic fantasy brought to life, he realizes that fantasy has always meant more to him than anything we would typically call a fantasy. He didn't care about the more lurid or intimate things ever as much as he cared about his music. I know the disappointment of being without that dream fulfilled, but I didn't realize until penning the line that I not only regret that failure more than my personal embarrassments, but that it means I may have locked away the possibility of ever truly being happy.

More than that, the pages also fictionalize a happy ending for a connection I know I should have let fray along these years. It has been unhealthy for me, which I have admitted not just to myself, and the act of writing the words down was akin to telling myself the lie enough times to begin believing it might be more real than reality. Writing an ending, even if it exists only in my head, might let me move on from being stuck in that desperate cycle. That's wishful thinking, perhaps, but that's the point of writing fiction.

Much like how writing lyrics allowed me to say things without people understanding, writing truth in the form of jokes allowed me to be honest while claiming to be able to laugh at myself. It counts even if I'm laughing at the absurdity, right?

Music has been a constant companion, in both relationships, and it seems all too fitting that music was the key to letting me find my way back to being a writer. Music is supposed to connect us to something in ourselves, something in other people, that is otherwise difficult to put into words. It would be too dramatic to say music saved me, but it certainly has kept the water from rising past the drowning point. In this case, music led me to write something that showed me what it is that truly matters to me, what it is I should and shouldn't care about... who I should and shouldn't care about.

That's giving a lot of weight to jokes I wrote without any of this psychology behind them. I was trying to amuse myself, but there is an old saying about how great jokes have a grain of truth in them. That is what happened here, and I'm thankful for it.

I've written essays here about some of these issues, but that was me talking to/with myself. Writing a screenplay put my words into a character's mouth, and that minor distance lets me hear them differently, or perhaps hear them at all. Nothing that this year's new releases have to offer is going to be able to impact me the way this experience did, but it all gets thrown into the pot.

My colleague here was struck by the concept when I wrote that music is "my currency of thought". Even when music seems to be behind me, it paints the way forward, which only goes to prove the point. Reality may never live up to the fiction I have now written for myself, but having that story to live inside is a sense of comfort, if only because I have a better idea of what I want the remaining pages to look like.

That's not bad for a bunch of jokes I thought I was writing just to amuse myself.

Still Waking Up To The "Nightmare Of You"

The anniversary of the debut album from Nightmare Of You came and went without me saying anything, because by the time I realized I should have been saying something about the record, I had already shut down for the year. This record is one of those things that has lingered in the back of my head for the last twenty years, often seeming like a curiosity, but etching the lines deeper with each passing year. Over the last few months, it has been a more important album than it ever has, and to talk properly about it would entail saying things I felt like I was done talking about.

My fascination with the record may have started simply from the band's name, because if there is a recurring truth in my life, it is that there have been several people who could be 'you' who have made me question the difference between a dream and a nightmare. It has not necessarily veered into the philosophical/psychological territory wherein I say that the dream coming true is the worst thing that can possibly happen, and that 'yes' is the worst thing someone can say to me, but it is pulling water from that well.

Next came "Dear Scene, I Wish I Were Deaf", which was a millennial retelling of The Smith's "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out", a song that once carried great meaning to me. When the lyric talks about having "jerked the steering wheel to the median/joking that we'd end out lives/but we weren't joking all the time", it carries a cynically unromantic variation on Morrissey's story about dying with the person you love not being such a bad way to go. Finding something more cynical and morose than Morrissey was interesting, both for realizing the limitations of his contrarianism, but also for understanding the way those thoughts were able to exist in my own head.

"I Want To Be Buried In Your Backyard" is a second chapter to that story, carrying through the ramification of not getting that 'happy ending'. The desire is to remain close even past the end, hoping the pain of being gone can feed a flower to serve as a beautiful reminder of what could have been. I used a different metaphor when I wrote something taking up a similar fear of being forgotten by the people I was stupid enough to care about, but the sentiment was similar. There is something uniquely painful about throwing your entire weight into something, only to realize you could not make someone's heart budge in the slightest.

I've been thinking bout this record for that very reason. Lately, I've been as detached and cynical as the characters in these songs, but for very different reasons. When the opening song sings, "if it feels like your heart's dried up, I can relate to that/and if you need someone at your side, I am out there", I hear the words in my own voice. It makes me wonder if it's possible for love to be classified as a long-term heart attack, given the damage both are capable of causing. That's the appropriate level of cynicism when listening to Nightmare Of You.

I could pick a few more lines to illustrate the connection, like when it is sung, "I scoured your town completely aroused, making love to your memory", but I think I've made the point enough. This record is a collection of sad and macabre stories on how love and connections are various shades of horror movies, but for some of us it gets even more cynical than that. The psychological abuse done is not shameful for the effect it has had on us, but shameful instead because it is the strongest desire we have. We want to suffer through that, because at least that means we had the experiences of life at all. When the lyric says, "I do want to fall in love, but I just don't know how to", it is absolutely something I have said to myself.

That isn't to say this album speaks to me like a kindred spirit, because there is a sense of irony baked into them that is very much a performance, whereas my feelings are all too real. No, the reason the record has continued to resonate with me is because I find it cruelly amusing that it took cynical fiction for an album to capture my own feelings. If we use stories and parables as ways of sifting down to the truth, there aren't many sieves fine enough to let such faint light fall through.

It's a story of inertia, and how a record can move closer slow enough to not notice the collision course until it's too late.

Singles Roundup: VK Lynne, Weezer, & Dogma

Some weeks require a bit more thought than others. We're going to dig a little deeper this time.

VK Lynne - Desperation

"There's desperation in the air. It leaves a stain on all your clothes, and no detergent gets it out." Those words were sung by Meat Loaf back in 1993, but the concept of desperation has taken on a much more present place in our lives in recent years. It's quaint to think about the malaise of the grunge years, and the mystique of sadness, and wonder what those bands would have come up with if they had to live through the shit-show every waking day is now. I'm not sure Jim Steinman, or myself, are cynical enough to find the humor in any of it.

VK Lynne's new single deals with the primal force of desperation, venturing as deeply into the groove of metal as anything she has done since Stork, creating a sound I am dubbing 'crushingly ethereal'. With a guitar riff that grinds the low strings into a buzzsaw, her voice floats and cries above the din like an angel who realized no one would feel like they were actually in Heaven if they had to listen to harp music all day. Whether cooing the truth about desperation, or belting the chorus about fury, there's a quality in VK's voice that melts our armor.

What exactly the desperation entails is unimportant, because we are all desperate for one thing or another. For some, it is desperation to control the world around us. For others, it is desperation to feel accepted for who we are. For yet others, it is desperation for the fires in our minds to be put out, even if only for a day. The reason we say things 'reek of desperation' is because it brings out the worst in us. That might entail gaslighting someone until they believe you, drunk dialing someone you know should be in your past, or chasing someone down the street the way Chandler Bing did after confessing to being "hopeless, and awkward, and desperate."

Musically, "Desperation" is a performance about performative rage, and the ways in which we beat our heads against the wall (or a dead horse in this case) when confronted with a post-truth world. We can choose to scream into the abyss, or belt out a message of warning instead. The question at hand is whether we are desperate enough to ask for help. VK is imploring us to be better, and to remember art tells us truths that may not have even been intended by the artist. Who among us hasn't taken solace in a song, only to learn the meaning was a needed invention of our mind? In this case, VK is slapping us back to reality. The taste of blood in our mouths isn't so bitter, now is it?

Weezer - Shine Again

The way I think of Weezer these days is a bit like flipping through my high school yearbook; they are a part of my past, and I only take note of them to see how poorly they have aged. As "Pinkerton" hits its thirtieth anniversary this year, my attention is finely attuned to how far Weezer has fallen, which is a feat when you consider how flawed and shameful even their heights turned out to be.

This new song is everything I have hated about Weezer over the last twenty years. They crank the amps a bit more to try to sound like the old days, but it's without the irony of "Blue", or the true ugliness of "Pinkerton". They are play-acting as themselves, but it doesn't work on a song this sterile, and facile. Rivers is singing the first verse about his 'honey-do' list, including dropping his kids off at school. That's not exactly fertile ground for a rocking song, now is it?

But that's the thing about Weezer. Rivers has spent his entire career living in 'cringe', but not able to control when he's leaning into the joke, and when he's being absolutely sincere about his legendary uncoolness. This song falls on the wrong side, where he sounds legitimately proud of performing his chores, but within the confines of a song that lacks anything that sounds inspired. It's a bit like taking the detached attitude of "Green", but trying to be honest, only to realize you have nothing of importance to say.

What all of that means is that once again Weezer reminds me I still hate myself for all the time I've spent listening to them over the years. You don't always want to see your ex find happiness, but you probably don't want them to sound this miserable either.

Dogma - Fate Unblinds

Music is supposed to be an escape, or a form of therapy, so I don't like it when music leaves me with a skeevy, uncomfortable feeling. Last year, stories came out that the people behind the 'band' Dogma were predatory businessmen taking advantage of the women who were the faces of the group. Their contracts paid them as little as possible, and took the rights to their very likenesses. The entire lineup has turned over multiple times because of this, and I'm not sure if I was encouraged that the story got as much play as it did in the metal press, or if I was more disappointed the industry didn't blackball the whole project right away.

Dogma is now back with a new lineup, and perhaps new people behind the scenes. There isn't any information to go on, which leaves us in a rather unfortunate space. I don't know if I'm supposed to treat this as more exploitation of musicians trying to make their way, or if it's a genuine effort to make right what wrongs have occurred. It reminds me a bit of the situation when Manowar was too tight-lipped about the status of their own predator.

That all being said, perhaps the reason all of that psychology is so frustrating is because there's something to Dogma that could be great. They were positioned as being akin to early Ghost, and that carries through on this new song. The band's image is what gets pushed front-and-center, but this song displays the same knack for turning terrible occult method-acting into hard rock flush with meaty hooks. The song is a memorable sing-along, the guitar playing just flashy enough, and the vocals sound great. This should be an easy recommendation, and a promising teaser, and yet... I'm more uncomfortable about Dogma themselves than the song talking about giving birth to a demon.

Wait... does that make this a meta-song about the birth of Dogma? I really need to stop thinking so much.

Album Review: Xtasy - Phoenix

When last we heard from Xtasy, they were epitomizing a phenomenon that occurs in music. No matter our preferred genre, there are bands that stand above all the rest, even when we can't explain exactly why. There are dozens of bands that will all use the same building blocks, but one will hit us in a way the others do not. What makes this even more interesting is when collaboration gets involved, and some of the same players and writers get different reactions with different bands.

Xtasy worked in collaboration with Erik Martensson of Eclipse on that record, and again on this record. That is notable, because Eclipse has been gaining stature in the melodic rock world, and yet I have gone back to "Eye Of The Storm" again and again, while Eclipse has done exactly what their name implies. There's something about Xtasy's sound that is brighter, sharper, perhaps more exotic, and it leads to a band that stands out in a crowded field.

Much of that focuses on Silvia's voice, which is the unique piece of this puzzle. Her tone is unlike most everyone who sings this kind of music, a piercing siren with the ability to put just enough rumble into her voice to keep the band's sound from getting too light and airy. She keeps this melodic rock from becoming soft rock.

"Can't Get Enough" embodies Xtasy at their best, with gang vocals that anchor a chorus you would be humming to yourself long after the record is over, and a guitar solo that offers just enough shred to tell us there's more they have to offer than what we're being shown. Moments like those make clear they are playing for the sake of the song, because the most impressive thing is to write and play songs that stick with us. Xtasy certainly did that on "Eye Of The Storm", and they're doing it again here.

Xtasy makes the whole package sound easier than it is. Writing memorable songs is hard, and so is selling them to the audience. I think that's actually what separates them from Eclipse, as Erik's vocal performances can't match the charm Silvia has. Some of her deliveries come with something close to an audible wink, which invites us in to be part of the music. There's no effort to convince us how hard they're trying, which reads with an authenticity I certainly appreciate.

In the six years since "Eye Of The Storm" came out, and despite the incalculable number of bands and songs I have heard since then, I never forgot Xtasy. Every time a melodic rock album came out that impressed me, what it did was remind me of the benchmarks of the genre, which include Xtasy for me. "Phoenix" has a lot to live up to, and it does. It doesn't have the ability to catch me by surprise the same way as when I first heard Xtasy, but the harder task is to impress us once we know what to expect. "Phoenix" picks up right where the band left off, and that they can keep the momentum flowing without missing a beat is impressive indeed.

"Phoenix" sees the band rising up once again, this time hitting a little harder, rather than subduing us into submission. Both approaches work, and which one you prefer will be entirely up to you. I, for one, am just glad to have Xtasy back.